I am an achiever & stand by what I perceive to be true.........
When I started this space of my own......these words above came to me naturally........no second thoughts!
However, somewhere down the line.....as I wrote dedications to my family, daughter, husband, friends........the me went missing. The mother in me had taken over and I was making statements that I'd be more than happy to be a stay at home mommie mothering my children and taking care of my home & husband......and the career can go out of the window!!!
Yeah....unbelievable to many of my close friends too.
One Fine day I decided I had enough......enough of my nonsensical idea of being a Mother who can work wonders on her children and family by staying at home.
Can't help mentioning my Mom here.....who of course was a working woman but never once made us feel like she was not around! Well, understand me correctly......she ensured we need the amount of security we need. My mother believed in letting each other have their space & she respected our privacy. That's probably the reason I never felt the need to lock my drawers which housed my personal diaries.
Mommies can impose their rules, discipline, views and whatever......on us. My mother did that too.......
but when I weigh the Resents against the Thanks that I have for her; the Thanks definitely outweigh the resents.
My mother made me the person I am today. Inclusive of both.....good & the bad.
She certainly gave a lot of good & I let unwanted presences wipe off all the good that I could see in me.
I took a stress test the other day......scored a 5+ which indicates that I need immediate medical assistance.
I was shocked! Well......I am the only one who cares about it too..........so I decided for myself..........
I don't need assistance, not yet! .............I just need a renewed me.
So here I am..........
taking the reins of my life into my own hands.
Detaching myself of all unwanted baggage...they've given me nothing but early greying of hair :-)
I'm serving my notice period at my current organisation........
.....surging ahead as per a strategy that I have set for myself.
Looking forward to my new venture........
Making new relationships and nurturing them.
Setting new aspirations and many dreams; and being in constant pursuit of them.
Being Alive.....once again
Now that's what I call good going!!!!
Annette lives for reasons enough darling! don't need the sorrows nomore. :-)
As Aisha says......yuppeeeeeeeeee :-)
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Thoughts by Chance
Never let anyone know what's playing on your mind.
Never show your cards.
Be a closed book; let people judge you by the cover. It’s not cool to let others know much about you.
Trust nobody but yourself with your finances, ask for advise.....don’t necessary to follow it.
A woman must have a bank balance behind her to make her feel secure; a man however needs a woman.
There is no relationship that can equal what a mother shares with her child.
A Mother-in-law will never be a mother; a Daughter-in-law will never be allowed to become a daughter.
Men are into relationships for sex and so are women; they don't need each other otherwise. They are happier being independent.
Mistakes happen…….it is upto us to avoid them.
If a relationship exudes stress…….detach yourself emotionally. You’ll feel better. What’s better ….the other person will feel worse. If the other one feels better too……the relationship was never alive.
You don’t plan to have a baby…….the baby is born out of its own destiny.
Parenting is difficult. Children are innocent.........knowledge kills innocence.
And…....
Thoughts become things. It’s upto us to choose the good ones :-) Tally Ho!!!!
Never show your cards.
Be a closed book; let people judge you by the cover. It’s not cool to let others know much about you.
Trust nobody but yourself with your finances, ask for advise.....don’t necessary to follow it.
A woman must have a bank balance behind her to make her feel secure; a man however needs a woman.
There is no relationship that can equal what a mother shares with her child.
A Mother-in-law will never be a mother; a Daughter-in-law will never be allowed to become a daughter.
Men are into relationships for sex and so are women; they don't need each other otherwise. They are happier being independent.
Mistakes happen…….it is upto us to avoid them.
If a relationship exudes stress…….detach yourself emotionally. You’ll feel better. What’s better ….the other person will feel worse. If the other one feels better too……the relationship was never alive.
You don’t plan to have a baby…….the baby is born out of its own destiny.
Parenting is difficult. Children are innocent.........knowledge kills innocence.
And…....
Thoughts become things. It’s upto us to choose the good ones :-) Tally Ho!!!!
Monday, April 12, 2010
Band Width
Did you know.......???
Band Width is a term in zoology which means "A group of animals together"??
Wanna check for yourself???
Go ahead.......Open the thesaurus,
type Band Width & search in All Reference Books.........PRONTO!!! "animals together" is what you get!
Well, nothing much about this post.....just that.....it's helped me be a little more at ease with my..............oh so...... liberal use of lovenames like,.......... "Ass" & "Bitch" ..........
especially in the place where having "Band Width" is considered imperative! :-)
Yeah! Have you got that one right or what??? :-)
Band Width is a term in zoology which means "A group of animals together"??
Wanna check for yourself???
Go ahead.......Open the thesaurus,
type Band Width & search in All Reference Books.........PRONTO!!! "animals together" is what you get!
Well, nothing much about this post.....just that.....it's helped me be a little more at ease with my..............oh so...... liberal use of lovenames like,.......... "Ass" & "Bitch" ..........
especially in the place where having "Band Width" is considered imperative! :-)
Yeah! Have you got that one right or what??? :-)
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Easter service by candle light
Last Sunday as we all know was Easter..........
Easter marks the end of the season of Lent and the Resurrection of Jesus Christ who in dying gave us Eternal Life!
Well, this is as much as I know & I want to believe.
All these years.........I went to church on Easter Sunday & of each such service that I have attended in all these years, I specifically remember the part where we renewed our baptismal vows.
For the first time this year I chose to attend the service on Saturday......
As the tradition goes each person attending the service is supposed to carry a candle to church and my Mamma did for us all.
My favorite part arrived......& unlike just saying "I do" after every vow the priest states when at the day service.........the night service added a little extra touch. That's is what we needed the candles for. Altar boys with flames taken from the Pascal Candle came by to share the flames with the entire congregation who in turn lit their candles & held them high as the renewal of vows begun.
The scene was beautiful............
As we were the back benchers we had the best view. It looked like a canopy of tiny gleaming flames as abiding worshippers proclaimed their faith.
Well not to miss.........among all the I Do's the loudest one sounded like ," aaai dooooo". That was my Aisha.....holding her candle high & then made an endearing effort to blow the candle off.
It was a nice service........... Indeed a very nice experience.
As for Aisha...............she had the whole football ground to herself.......and many fellow christians happily sacrificed the priests sermons to hear the unstoppable chatter, shrieks, questions and all that Aisha had to offer.
Happy Easter!!! she wished all enthusiastically after the mass all the way as we headed home.
Easter marks the end of the season of Lent and the Resurrection of Jesus Christ who in dying gave us Eternal Life!
Well, this is as much as I know & I want to believe.
All these years.........I went to church on Easter Sunday & of each such service that I have attended in all these years, I specifically remember the part where we renewed our baptismal vows.
For the first time this year I chose to attend the service on Saturday......
As the tradition goes each person attending the service is supposed to carry a candle to church and my Mamma did for us all.
My favorite part arrived......& unlike just saying "I do" after every vow the priest states when at the day service.........the night service added a little extra touch. That's is what we needed the candles for. Altar boys with flames taken from the Pascal Candle came by to share the flames with the entire congregation who in turn lit their candles & held them high as the renewal of vows begun.
The scene was beautiful............
As we were the back benchers we had the best view. It looked like a canopy of tiny gleaming flames as abiding worshippers proclaimed their faith.
Well not to miss.........among all the I Do's the loudest one sounded like ," aaai dooooo". That was my Aisha.....holding her candle high & then made an endearing effort to blow the candle off.
It was a nice service........... Indeed a very nice experience.
As for Aisha...............she had the whole football ground to herself.......and many fellow christians happily sacrificed the priests sermons to hear the unstoppable chatter, shrieks, questions and all that Aisha had to offer.
Happy Easter!!! she wished all enthusiastically after the mass all the way as we headed home.
Monday, April 5, 2010
Of Fairy Tales & Odes
I have been listening to a song since the last 15 days or so.......
it's called Fireflies......& as my friend rightly said, It does make me want to believe in Fairy Tales.
Surprisingly believing in Fairy Tales and dreaming about all those beautiful islands that you'd want to be on with your Prince is not so difficult you know. A song and some solace to enjoy it is all you need.
And I thought fairy tales were for kids.
But, what I have come to realise is that there's much more meaning to those Fairy Tales if you want to believe it's all happenning to you.....
This song has brought back islands, clear blue skies, flower beds, bunnies and butterflies, fairies, Thumbelina's, Dwarfs, twinkling stars, a big bright moon, streams bubbling with crystal clear water and lots more to me.
Thanks to Tim Burton........I got to visit Alice's Wonderland too :-)
As a little girl........I tried rhyming a little and I am so happy that I still have the ability today
Read on...........you might just like it.
I so want to fall asleep...
but I'm off sleep lately.
I so want to keep silent...
but I'm out of my wits, I can cook up a storm.
What's become of me is just a sign...
that I'm so madly in love and all I want is....
for you to be mine!
A twinkling Star, a blossoming flower
Sounds of the Ocean, and the gentle breeze.
Hold on to these my love.....
cause though we're apart,
they'll remind you of the one in your heart!
it's called Fireflies......& as my friend rightly said, It does make me want to believe in Fairy Tales.
Surprisingly believing in Fairy Tales and dreaming about all those beautiful islands that you'd want to be on with your Prince is not so difficult you know. A song and some solace to enjoy it is all you need.
And I thought fairy tales were for kids.
But, what I have come to realise is that there's much more meaning to those Fairy Tales if you want to believe it's all happenning to you.....
This song has brought back islands, clear blue skies, flower beds, bunnies and butterflies, fairies, Thumbelina's, Dwarfs, twinkling stars, a big bright moon, streams bubbling with crystal clear water and lots more to me.
Thanks to Tim Burton........I got to visit Alice's Wonderland too :-)
As a little girl........I tried rhyming a little and I am so happy that I still have the ability today
Read on...........you might just like it.
I so want to fall asleep...
but I'm off sleep lately.
I so want to keep silent...
but I'm out of my wits, I can cook up a storm.
What's become of me is just a sign...
that I'm so madly in love and all I want is....
for you to be mine!
A twinkling Star, a blossoming flower
Sounds of the Ocean, and the gentle breeze.
Hold on to these my love.....
cause though we're apart,
they'll remind you of the one in your heart!
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
F.R.I.E.N.D.S
They are important........very important
They make life joyful..........happy.......wonderful
They hang out with us.......make us laugh.........They share our grief and our happiness too.
They cheer us up when we're feeling low & help us overcome our fears.
They make the best partners & if they are good listeners....life could never be better :-)
They are fun to have....fun to be with & make fantastic company.
Well, they can also be a pain in the wrong places! What's better....we can tell them when they're being one!
They make life worthwhile!
Just as I was beginning to feel lonesome....I am alive to the fact that I have them in my life.
Many a times that I haven't confided in them......maybe my own apprehensions and then realised that I have been a fool in doing so.
Yet again! if not for them....I wouldn't have realised that I was one either!
My world would be incomplete without them....so...so incomplete.
Guess there is some bond. A bond we form over a period of time.
It needs no explanation...Actually...............I cannot explain it.
When in silence and you still find your feelings conveyed accross........
.........you know there's someone just around the corner;
behold! It's a Friend.
They make life joyful..........happy.......wonderful
They hang out with us.......make us laugh.........They share our grief and our happiness too.
They cheer us up when we're feeling low & help us overcome our fears.
They make the best partners & if they are good listeners....life could never be better :-)
They are fun to have....fun to be with & make fantastic company.
Well, they can also be a pain in the wrong places! What's better....we can tell them when they're being one!
They make life worthwhile!
Just as I was beginning to feel lonesome....I am alive to the fact that I have them in my life.
Many a times that I haven't confided in them......maybe my own apprehensions and then realised that I have been a fool in doing so.
Yet again! if not for them....I wouldn't have realised that I was one either!
My world would be incomplete without them....so...so incomplete.
Guess there is some bond. A bond we form over a period of time.
It needs no explanation...Actually...............I cannot explain it.
When in silence and you still find your feelings conveyed accross........
.........you know there's someone just around the corner;
behold! It's a Friend.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
I love you BIG
I've wanted to post this for a long long time.............well, It finally made it's way to the blog!
Three simple words.......they take less than 2 seconds, they can carry feelings accross the seven seas too.................I LOVE YOU.
Those of you who've been blessed with loved ones will completely understand what it means to hear your loved one say, whisper or scream back an "I love you too.
Just as Aisha had learned to speak she had started to reciprocate an I Love you with "Awwooo tooooo" (the cutest part is that she'd sway her tiny head side to side as she said it)
One day I went on to ask her,"Aisha, do you love mamma?" and Aisha nodded in a Yes!
I took a chance and asked her, "How much" and Aisha beamed. "BIG" she said!
The answer tickled me and I wondered where that came from.
I taught Aisha what's big when I drew her favorite balloons........a small one & then a big one. Amazingly my daughter associated the big balloon with more & that's where her reply came from. (If you could see me I am beaming as I type every letter :-))
It's probably been 3 months since Aisha kept to that response & I soooooooooo wish she always responds to how much do you love Mamma and Dada with a beaming "BIG"
I love Aisha and Aisha loves her Mamma & Dada BIG! Amen forever!
Three simple words.......they take less than 2 seconds, they can carry feelings accross the seven seas too.................I LOVE YOU.
Those of you who've been blessed with loved ones will completely understand what it means to hear your loved one say, whisper or scream back an "I love you too.
Just as Aisha had learned to speak she had started to reciprocate an I Love you with "Awwooo tooooo" (the cutest part is that she'd sway her tiny head side to side as she said it)
One day I went on to ask her,"Aisha, do you love mamma?" and Aisha nodded in a Yes!
I took a chance and asked her, "How much" and Aisha beamed. "BIG" she said!
The answer tickled me and I wondered where that came from.
I taught Aisha what's big when I drew her favorite balloons........a small one & then a big one. Amazingly my daughter associated the big balloon with more & that's where her reply came from. (If you could see me I am beaming as I type every letter :-))
It's probably been 3 months since Aisha kept to that response & I soooooooooo wish she always responds to how much do you love Mamma and Dada with a beaming "BIG"
I love Aisha and Aisha loves her Mamma & Dada BIG! Amen forever!
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